Writing

Dear Young Authors

For the past two weeks, I have spent more hours than I would care to admit watching videos about the Audra Winter situation. If you don’t know, Audra Winter is a 22 year old queer, autistic author who girl bossed to close to the sun, and through hubris and a lack of experience, she went from being a Tiktok marketing sensation who got 6,000 preorders on a sight unseen book to someone people are begging to listen and drop her ego because she doesn’t have the skill to back it up. BookLoverLaura‘s videos do a good job of capturing the whole situation. As a fellow queer autistic who made writing their whole personality in my younger years, I see a lot of my younger self in Audra, so I wanted to talk about some lessons I learned that might help other young authors along the way and things I wish I realized sooner.

  1. Don’t make your book/writing your whole personality– This often comes from a place of passion, which is great, but you are more than your book or your love of writing. Making your book or writing your whole personality becomes a problem when you start viewing any criticism of your book or process as a direct attack against you. Learn to separate your identity from your book or writing productivity. A secondary issue with this arises when you need to take a break or want to do something besides writing. If your entire identity is tied to one thing and you stop doing that thing, you are going to spiral. Staking your identity and self-worth on other people’s validation or one activity is a good way to set yourself up for mental health problems and an identity crisis in the future. As an aside, you are also probably insufferable to others if this is the only thing you do or talk about. Variety of interests is always a good thing. Be colorful.
  2. Younger isn’t always better.– Something I regret is publishing my first book at 23. The years between 23 and 25 provided a lot of growth for me as a writer and as a person. I think if I had waited a little longer, I could have made my first book even stronger structurally and emotionally. As much as I like it and am proud of 23 year old me, it makes me cringe to read now, which is to be expected as I have grown as an author. At the time I was writing it, I definitely had a chip on my shoulder and had plenty of things to work through as a person that hindered my writing in ways I didn’t understand at the time. Society pushes that younger is better and that “prodigies” are special, but authorship is a marathon, not a sprint. You want to create a sustainable writing career, and the younger you are, the more foolish you are and the more likely you are to tank your career over something you would never do as a more mature adult.
  3. Listen to other people!- One of the biggest frustration points with the Audra Winter situation is that she refuses to listen to anyone. You are not the first author to do something, and if everyone is doing something differently than you, there may be a reason for it. When you’re young, there’s often a feeling that you are special and doing things no one has ever done before, but in reality, you just have no idea what you’re talking about and don’t know enough to know what you don’t know. Inexperience breeds hubris. There are TONS of resources online for new authors to help them with writing, publishing, managing money, etc. Use those resources and ask authors who are more experienced than you rather than reinventing the wheel. Most authors are more than willing to point a newbie in the right direction, but if you come off as an arrogant tool, no one will want to help you. In regards to editors, you may not agree with everything they say, but if multiple people (betas, editors, readers, etc.) say the same thing, you need to tamp down your knee-jerk reaction to the feedback and see if they are right. Editors are trying to make your book better, and you will get called out if you ignore obvious issues in your books.
  4. You are not entitled to an audience or career.– I really hate pity marketing, which is when people post things like, hinting that people not buying your books makes you want to off yourself, “The tiktok algorithm keeps hiding my posts. Like and share to help me become a six figure author,” or even, “Support me because here are things the haters are saying about me.” It’s also those videos where it shows someone sitting at a table at Barnes and Noble with no one buying a book in order to guilt-trip people into supporting them. Tonally, there is a difference between this and talking about the realities of being an author. The latter doesn’t ask the viewer to buy anything or follow them. There will be times where a convention doesn’t work out or you sell zero books in a month, but you are not entitled to a following or an audience. Cultivating an audience is a two way street. The author has to create something of value for their audience and earn the audience’s trust by putting out repeated books that are of good quality, don’t feel scammy, and meet their readers’ expectations. If you don’t do those things, no one will want to read your work. Often, authors aren’t attracting the audience that fits with their books due to bad marketing, so you need to do things that will attract those people. Ultimately, whether you get an audience is partly due to algorithms and luck online and partly due to how you present yourself and your books to the world. You are not entitled to anyone’s time, money, or attention.
  5. Don’t expect your income to continually grow every month.- There’s an expectation that businesses will grow in an upward diagonal line, but that isn’t how it works, especially as an author. Your income will yo-yo. There are slow points during the year where sales dip and times where they boom, and if you do sales or bundles, you will often see hills and valleys. There are times when releases don’t make as much money off the bat as you expect or the algorithms change and you see a dip in sales. These things are going to happen. You need to brace yourself for really low income months and spend your money assuming the highs are not going to last. Audra Winter made a ton of money on preorders, and she immediately incorporated into an LLC on the assumption that the money would continue to roll in. There’s a 99% chance it will not continue at that magnitude, so don’t put the cart before the horse and assume you are suddenly going to be successful forever. Virality doesn’t equal long-term success. Building a sustainable author career is key to avoiding burnout and expanding your readership, so focus on the long-term success, not short-term hills and valleys.

If you takeaway nothing else from this post, I hope my younger author friends remember that your author career is a marathon, not a sprint. Build a solid foundation rather than trying to do all the things or trying to go viral, and early success does not guarantee future success. Listen to others, and above all, be yourself/be a person with hobbies beyond writing.

Writing

The Money-Time Paradox

Something I have been thinking about a lot, especially since I recently had to drop a lot of money on my medicine and getting my car fixed, is how creatives get stuck in day jobs and are unable to make enough to let them go or even shift down into part-time work or less mentally strenuous work due to the world we live in, especially in the US.

These past two years I have probably made more off my books than the previous four years combined, but it isn’t enough to live off. On paper it may look like a decent amount, but once you take 30% out for taxes, it certainly isn’t a living wage. Part of me would like to spend less time teaching and more time writing, but it isn’t feasible. I will say that I do greatly enjoy my job. I love my students, and I don’t think I would want to fully stop teaching, especially creative writing. The thing is that I wish I could say no when I didn’t feel like it. I wish I didn’t have to teach the summer bootcamp class, but it’s easy money for 2.5 weeks of nonstop grading. Even though it is a skilled job that requires a masters or more, the pay is trash (that is the system’s fault, not my department’s by the way). When I’ve told my students how much I make for 15 weeks of work, they all looked appalled, but I keep teaching because it allows me enough time for my brain to reset between workdays, so I can write. If I had a more traditional 9-5, especially one where I was at an office with other people, I don’t think I would write at all. Being around other people all day is hard when you’re autistic. Every second of the day is performative and tense. By the time I would get home, there would be nothing left. When I worked at an office for one day a week, I felt my brain shrivel up by the end of the day to the point that I did nothing when I got home and that often continued into the next day. The job wasn’t even strenuous; it was all the people-ing I had to do and the sensory overload that sucked the life out of me. Bright computer screens without dimmers, fluorescent lights, and constant chatter tax my system.

What I would like to be able to do one day is live off my writing and/or make things to sell as well. None of this will probably happen until my partner has a better job. I hate the idea that I might need to rely on him monetarily because I worry that would put unnecessary pressure on him. The things that hold me back from making the leap are all tied to problems our society could easily fix. I worry about paying for my medication because it’s expensive, and while I have a discount card, it does eventually run out and my out-of-pocket cost limit isn’t insubstantial. Universal healthcare would eliminate that fear of not having enough money to pay for my meds (or my partner’s). Universal basic income would go a long way to lessening the burden placed on those who struggle to work full-time. My teaching job(s) are considered part-time or contract work. If they no longer need me, I can’t get unemployment. These low paying but very necessary jobs could keep their better employees if they either paid more or the government supplemented everyone under a certain wage bracket with UBI. It could easily lift people out of poverty or tide those artists or seasonal workers over during the lean months. It’s tough enough being a creative or starting a new business, but it doesn’t need to be nearly as hard as our country makes it.

I refuse to buy into the whole hustle culture idea of writing to market or chasing trends or upping my productivity by fifty percent. There are definitely some things I could do to potentially write more, like actually prioritizing writing over other random tasks I have to do or watching a video on YouTube, but at the same time, I don’t want to suck the fun and leisure time out of my life to reach some arbitrary writing or income goal because in the past that has led to burn-out. This is what I mean when I talk about creatives being stuck in the money-time paradox. Despite what the girl-bosses and hustlers say, we have a finite amount of resources, whether it be money, time, mental fortitude, physical energy, or creative juices, and at some point, the well runs dry. If you’re not careful, you can cause irreparable harm and erase any progress or momentum you already have.

So, Kara, if you won’t do the hustle thing or quit your job, how do you plan to write more? I have no clue. My schedule this semester has been a little weird due to when my classes fall, but next semester, that’s back to normal, which will make it easier to write. November will be a bit difficult for me, as it always is, due to the time change, darkness, and influx of student papers, but by December, I’m hoping to get a solid routine down and try to find the sweet spot again for when I’m most productive. That has gotten lost in the sauce this semester with the new schedule. Next year, if I could write two novels, I’d be really happy, but honestly, I doubt that’s going to happen unless I absolutely fry myself. Still, I cling to the hope that maybe, just maybe I’ll get that safety net I’ve been longing for.

Writing

Why Buy Indie?

Department stores are to traditionally published authors as independent bookstores are to indie authors.

We are the small businesses of the writing world.  Unlike authors who have published through traditional means, we are often the editors, marketers, formatters, and creative directors of our work.  Our publishing house consists of one person.  This means every success and failure falls on our shoulders, but it also means so does every cost.  Our resources are our own, and especially in the beginning when we do not have many books or readers (remember book two always sells book one), most of our expenses come out of our pockets.  We pay for the cover artists, the editors, the box of books we lug to conferences and author events.  It can be a hard road, especially when we don’t tend to get shelf space at your local Barnes and Noble or Waterstones.  Just remember that for less than a cup of coffee at Starbucks, you are buying something someone worked on numerous hours to perfect. Continue reading “Why Buy Indie?”