the reanimator's fate

One Month Until The Reanimator’s Fate

We are officially one month out until the release of The Reanimator’s Remains (TRM #4), which you can preorder at all major retailers here. Since we are getting so close, I thought I would share with you the prologue to whet your appetite.


Prologue

The Cat Burglar

Mr. George Chadwick Livingston III’s home off Fifth Avenue contained many things: massive marble mantles imported from Italy, stained glass windows made in Tiffany’s workshop, enamel vases purchased from Faberge in the style of the Russian tsars, wardrobes filled with gowns from Worth and Doucet, antiquities looted from cultures around the globe, and the best display of good breeding and taste a first-generation steamer magnate could buy. What it didn’t contain was a bobcat, yet when the clock struck two, the wildcat slid out from under the sofa and regarded the man’s well-stocked library with a gleam in its eye. The creature purred as it silently padded to each door and confirmed that the room was locked and the halls beyond it were empty of people. The bobcat and Enoch Whitley, the man who shared a body with it, had waited nearly a month for this day, and they weren’t going to squander it by getting caught.

With a shove, Enoch forced the bobcat to relinquish its hold. Their body locked and convulsed like a machine in need of oil after weeks in bobcat form. They bit back a hiss as their skull split and the cat’s sharp canines retracted in favor of a row of square, crooked teeth. Across their body, their skin crawled as fur was replaced with flesh and greying brown hair, but the sensation was nothing compared to the pain of the breaking and remaking of bones and the tearing of muscle. Enoch clamped his mouth shut as the pain reached a crescendo that turned to nausea. He shouldn’t have waited so long to shift. He was too old, and at some point, waiting too long would be his undoing. Resting his head against the Indian rug, Enoch panted and shut his eyes until his heart quieted and the last echoes of the transformation passed.

If one of the maids had walked in, they would have found him as naked and vulnerable as a baby bird, but that was the price he paid for shifting. His lips twitched at the thought of being caught like that again as he forced himself upright, one spindly limb at a time. It had been a long time since he had been so careless. Touching his neck for his collar of clothes, Enoch found it bare and let out a disappointed hum. The damned cat forgot them. His spare clothes had been bundled around his neck when they snuck into the mansion weeks earlier, but somewhere along the way, they had been left behind. Enoch scratched at the stubble on his chin and tried to remember where his clothing might be. Clothes were too expensive to leave behind if he could help it. Unfortunately, when he was a passenger in the bobcat’s mind for too long, it was easy to forget inconsequential things like clothes or the days of the week. The bobcat cared only for sleeping, eating, and whatever quarry Enoch set its mind to. He and the bobcat were alike in that way; while the cat didn’t care a fig about books, it enjoyed the hunt.

Glancing up at the oculus high above his head, Enoch watched a flurry of snow twist and dance across the glass. It had been thoroughly autumnal when they snuck into the Livingstons’ manor, but he had barely noticed nature’s slow slide into winter while nestled in the bobcat’s mind. At least the rich man’s palace was warm even without a fire. No matter. If he couldn’t find his clothes, he would simply secure the book with a table cloth or rag and leave in furs again. He would just have to be careful that the book didn’t fall out or get wet. Enoch frowned but shrugged to himself as his not quite human eyes adjusted to the meager light. He would figure something out.

Drifting to the nearest shelf, Enoch ran his gaze over the rows of books and was relieved to find that the library had some semblance of organization. He couldn’t abide rich swells who couldn’t tell a folio from a grimoire and stored their books in the most asinine fashion. He sometimes stole more from people who organized their books by size or color on principle. Arranging books by their outward appearance showed their owners didn’t care about what was inside them, just how they looked. They were often the same people who ripped off the original covers and plastered on a generic piece of fancy dyed leather, so it matched their rug and couches. Enoch’s lip curled at the thought of the books he prized so dearly being pinned down and having their wings ripped off like a butterfly to satisfy some decorative fancy. It was sacrilegious.

As he moved to the next shelf, Enoch ran a loving hand over the spine of a book he already owned. He had taken his copy from a collection at a college in Poughkeepsie several years earlier, and while Mr. Livingston’s copy was in better condition, Enoch felt no need to take it. The knowledge inside was the same, even if the cover was crisper, but his esteem for Mr. Livingston and his book agent grew a fraction. The man may have known nothing of books, but it was obvious the person he hired as his agent did. His library wasn’t nearly as large or prestigious as that of the other robber barons who lived on Fifth Avenue, but the dearth of the collection along with the trophy pieces were well chosen to make him look sensible yet affluent. Giving his agent free rein to organize it as he wished had lent the library an air of discernment and forethought. So many people put books in alphabetical order to save time, and that was nearly as bad as grouping them by appearance. When Enoch had last been allowed in the Paranormal Society’s library, they had used the Dewey Decimal System, which Enoch disliked for his own reasons, but that had been a while ago. Resentment kindled like a coal in his breast, but he smothered it by focusing on his quarry. It didn’t matter if the society didn’t understand his mission; he didn’t need them or their books as long as he could still shift. With their hovering librarians, missing books were spotted so quickly, but in a library like this, a book could go missing and not be noticed for years, or so he hoped.

The man Mr. Livingston had hired to stock his library—Ramsey, Ransom, something like that—had sought out titles that were not fought over by the men of the Grolier Club, yet the books he had purchased were still fairly rare and in good shape with the occasional treasure. If Enoch had been a cat burglar with less scruples, he might have grabbed a few of the nicer boring books and lived off the proceeds for years. But that wasn’t what he came for. Silently padding up the curling iron staircase in the corner, Enoch’s eyes glowed in the meager starlight like a cat’s. The book he wanted had to be up there somewhere. On the first floor, the higher shelves had been used for flaunting the more expensive treasures, visible but not easily touched. If this were his library, he would put the more controversial books on the second floor, out of reach and out of the way of prying eyes. The bobcat purred in his head as they reached a corner that couldn’t be glimpsed from the floor below. There were saucy books that probably contained some interesting etchings or turns of phrase, things that could no longer be sold through the mail legally, but Enoch didn’t care about those. He needed a book for his research library, and for once, he knew exactly who purchased it. The only question was if Livingston or his agent truly knew what it was; that would change where they put it.

Enoch squinted and blinked, his eyes and brain struggling over the titles as he skimmed row after row of spines. When he set off to steal this book, he hadn’t expected to get stuck in the cat’s head for weeks, but fate had smiled upon him that day. He had been perusing the shelves of his favorite bookshop when Mr. Livingston’s agent came in to check on whether an order of books had come in. As soon as the proprietor mentioned The Corpus Arcanum, Enoch had been unable to rip his attention away. The book had been on his desiderata for years, and he needed it. The next night he broke into the bookshop and went through the man’s papers to find the buyer. What he hadn’t realized was that Mr. Livingston had purchased it along with several dozen others.

The rest of the books were mundane or illicit in far less interesting ways, and Enoch couldn’t help but wonder why he had purchased a book on magic. He thought maybe Livingston was a collector of esoteric books, not for what they contained but for their age or strangeness. The library so far hadn’t contained anything particularly interesting or useful to him. Perhaps, the agent had merely gotten a feeling that he should buy it. That happened to non-magical people sometimes. If their blood contained the dregs of magic from some long-dead ancestor, they were drawn to magical objects like moths to a flame even if they couldn’t use them.

Enoch had expected to stake out the house for a few days before stealing the book. What he hadn’t expected was the book agent to quibble with Mr. Livingston about the organization of his library. For days, the bobcat had sat under the sofa as books were taken down, reorganized, cataloged, and the new books unpacked. Eventually, the bobcat refused to stay still for so long, so they took to learning the routines of the household staff and family, which halls were safe to traverse in daylight, and when the master of the house would next be away on business. He had decided to wait until Mr. Livingston left for England to take the book. The man spent a great deal of time in his library, and Enoch feared that if he didn’t wait until the new books lost their shine, their absence would be noticed. A life of bibliomania had taught him that book lovers always came in from time to time to marvel at their latest purchases, turning them over in their hands, and feeling that swell of satisfaction that it was theirs. Enoch knew the feeling well. Every book he stole for his research library was a treasure to be stroked and admired until he went after his next quarry. It was only when a new book took its place that it became one of many.

Waiting to take the book while Mr. Livingston was away was the smart thing to do. He and the book man were the only ones who came into the library with any regularity, and by the time he returned, his latest purchases and their locations on the shelf would have dulled in his memory. After a month of lurking in the shadows, Enoch would leave the mansion with far less mice than when he arrived in exchange for the book he needed. All things considered, it seemed a fair trade, and it wasn’t as if Mr. Livingston could use the book anyway.

As Enoch reached the second to last shelf, his breath hitched at the sudden kick of adrenaline coursing through his veins. There it was: The Corpus Arcanum. After years of trying to get his hands on it, it was finally his. The title had been written on the ribbed spine in a bold, golden script by some enterprising librarian over a century ago, but it was still in its original binding. Wiping his sweaty palms across his leg, Enoch steadied his shaking hands before carefully pulling it out. It had been stuck between two mundane volumes from the Renaissance, so he quickly shuffled the other books around it to obscure the space where the tome had been. Sinking to the floor of the catwalk, Enoch stared down at his prize and ran a reverent hand over the black, goatskin cover. No wonder the book agent had bought it for Mr. Livingston’s collection; it was beautiful. He had expected it to be plain and ugly like so many magical books were, but it was covered in gilded arabesques and stars that reflected the intricacies of the work within.

The collected knowledge of magic in one thick volume, and now it was his. He had begged the librarians at the Paranormal Society to let him into the special collections to read it, but that cantankerous old prune wouldn’t let him. His research was never worthy enough to gain him entry, though he was certain old Turpin kept him out to keep him from gaining too much knowledge. Enoch ran his fingers hungrily down the book’s spine as the bobcat purred loudly in his head. He didn’t need the Paranormal Society anymore. He had a library of his own. One that would soon rival them if he could find a few more books on his desiderata. He would make them regret dismissing him.

Cradling the book close, Enoch returned to the first floor and swept his glowing gaze for anything he might use to tie the book to the cat. The covers on the tables would be missed, and when he rifled through Mr. Livingston’s desk, he didn’t find so much as a handkerchief. Why would he keep one on hand when he could merely order a servant to bring him one? Enoch shoved the draw shut with a grunt and closed his eyes. He tried to picture the house from the bobcat’s perspective; there was a linen closet a few hallways over near the dining room where there were plenty of napkins that wouldn’t be missed. To get there, he would have to take to furs again and leave The Corpus Arcanum behind. Cold sweat broke on Enoch’s back at the thought of putting the book back or not being able to return to take it. If a maid heard him rummaging around, she might chase the cat off or realize there had been a robbery. The binding creaked beneath his fingers. He couldn’t risk going into the bobcat’s head for weeks again to get another chance. He had to leave with the book tonight. He needed this book for his research.

Enoch’s gaze sharpened. That was it. He needed the knowledge within the pages for his research, not the book itself. He had at least two hours before the staff began to wake. That was plenty of time to confirm a theory or two and satisfy his curiosity in case he had to wait to come back for the book. Settling at Mr. Livingston’s massive desk, Enoch suppressed a chuckle at how ridiculous he must look. He much preferred his usual ritual of showing off his latest find at the Guttenberg Club and then reading it in their parlor with a glass of port. Then again, Benjamin Franklin supposedly did his best work in the nude, so at least there was precedent. Cracking the cover, Enoch’s heart fluttered in anticipation. He skimmed over the front page of The Corpus Arcanum, his eyes lingering on the book curse written in gilded ink.

He who steals this paper and ink

Into death he shall sink.

May he enjoy these words today

For he shall not live to see another day.

Such charming things, book curses. Too bad they didn’t work. If they did, he would have been dead long ago. Flicking through the pages, Enoch skimmed the headings for the information he needed most. His head swam with a heady euphoria he rarely felt outside his library. The Corpus Arcanum was perfect. It had everything he needed. It probably held the secrets that would unlock everything if he had more than one lifetime to study it. He kept catching himself stopping to read random passages, but he needed to keep moving if he wanted to get out before dawn. He would read it all in due time, he reminded himself. When the next two pages stuck, Enoch went to lick his thumb but froze. The cat growled in his head as he stared down at this hand. His fingertips, nails and all, were black with ink. He wiped his hand against his bare leg, but the color held fast. He distantly knew this development was alarming, but as long as the paper was free of smudges, he didn’t care. Wiping his finger against the page, the words beneath it bubbled to the surface. They shimmered with wetness before soaking into his skin, their meaning sinking into him like a knife. Enoch stared at it with equal parts reverence and horror. The bobcat released a low rumble, but Enoch ignored it. The book wanted to become one with him. It had chosen him. He had heard of it happening, but he needed to read it first before he could take on all of its knowledge. He would take care now and wear gloves when he brought it to his library. Yes, gloves…

He nearly set the book down on the desk when a shuddering chill passed through him and a cold sweat broke on his back. His fingers tightened on the cover of their own accord. He stared transfixed as the words at the top of the page glowed and rearranged themselves. The letters danced and swayed to an unseen metronome until the world around him faded away. They flickered into new phrases, new connections, new information no human had ever gleaned before. Enoch gasped. It was exactly what he had always wanted to know. The Corpus Arcanum drew him in and held him tight until he could see nothing but the threads of the hidden world that had become his life’s work. It was connected. It was all connected. Tears stung his eyes as they trailed down his cheeks in oily, black streaks. He had been right. He had been right about so many things.

His teeth chattered and his heart thudded in his ears, but it didn’t matter because he had been right. He needed to gather disciples. Yes, he would start a school. The knowledge was in his eyes, his mouth, his ears. The words swam in his vision and pulsed in time with his blood. He would teach others. He would pass— Bitter, metallic saliva pooled in his mouth, but when he tried to swallow it, he choked. Ink surged up Enoch’s throat, spilling from his lips in a torrent. He gagged as it poured down his chin and out his nose. The ink flowed from every orifice, but he wouldn’t stop it even if he could. The Corpus Arcanum was in him. They were one. Blood spilled onto the page and wicked the words away in a tide of black as whispers filled his ears and letter after letter flickered across his vision like a zoetrope. Meaning pulsed through his veins in time with the pump of his faltering heart. The bobcat tried to mewl a warning, but the sound died beneath the rising black tide. Enoch couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t think. He didn’t have to. He knew everything. He finally knew everything. A beatific grin crossed his lips as his eyes rolled back in his skull, and he glimpsed the world he had longed to see.

Book Reviews

8 Books to Add to Your TBR 2025 Edition Pt. 3

In the past, I would make a best of list for books I read, but I hate holding off on talking about my favorite reads. Instead, I plan to make a few of these posts throughout the year as I find books I loved. You can read the first installment here.

  1. To Clutch a Razor (#2) by Veronica Roth- a one-time killer becomes the hunted and must atone for his past sins by taking out his family members for Baba Yaga in order to get part of his soul back. I absolutely loved this story. It’s about monsters, humanity, family- blood and found, and how you break generational curses in different ways. I can’t wait for more of this series.
  2. A Mouthful of Dust (#6) by Nghi Vo- Cleric Chih arrives in a town famous for its pork dish and its past famine only to find some members of the town are far more afraid of the truth of the famine and what people were driven to than others. As always, Vo’s work is layered and unfolds in unexpected and deliciously perfect ways.
  3. Queer as Folklore by Sacha Coward- a nonfiction book taking a look at the queer underpinings of folklore and monsters, from ancient times to modern pop culture. It is accessible and incredibly interesting and ends up being one of those books you finish and immediately want to do more research about the topic.
  4. Cinder House by Freya Marske- a very bi Cinderella retelling where Cinderella (or Ella, in this case) is the ghost of a murdered girl haunting a house until she realizes she can explore her city post-mortem and makes a bargain that leads to her falling in love at a ball. It’s also a bit about generational trauma and how children become the pawns in adults’ games.
  5. Snake Eater by T. Kingfisher- a woman escapes her life by running out to her aunt’s house in the middle of nowhere with only her dog and a few bucks only to find her aunt died a year ago and her house stands empty. She slowly becomes a part of the community and finds she has attracted the eye of a minor desert god. She soon realizes she is capable of far more than she thought possible.
  6. Cronus by P. Djeli Clark- A short story about AI, time manipulation, and reclaiming Black history. I don’t want to say too much since it’s short, but the speakeasy, magic, and queerness of the story was chef kiss. It’s also very timely, and for me, Clark is an auto-buy author.
  7. After Hours at Dooryard Books by Cat Sebastian- a man working at a bookstore in the 1960s, a man running from his past, a young woman starting over with her baby after the death of her husband, and finding their way to a new life together as family. I love how much this book focuses on found family and community while still dealing with so much grief. As with all Cat Sebastian books, it was like a cozy sweater and a hug after a very bad day.
  8. Nettle & Bone by T. Kingfisher- the third princess of a small royal family realizes she is the only one who can or will save her sister who is married to a prince who killed their sister and abuses her. The main character is a princess turned nun turned witch (?) who teams up with a bone witch with a demonic chicken, a banished knight, a bone dog, and a very odd godmother. I absolutely loved this one as it scratched my fairytale itch.
Personal Life

On Loving My Partner

It’s a really bizarre contrast to see conservatives repeatedly attacking trans people as my partner transitions. If you don’t know, my partner and I have been together for twenty years, and together, we have grown as people while growing closer. She was very accepting and encouraging when I came out as nonbinary, and when she started exploring her gender a year or two ago, I wondered if she might also be trans. Over the course of many months, she started wearing leggings and non-masculine clothing, and near the end of 2024, she came to the realization that she was a trans woman and her transition journey began in earnest.

I have always suspected my partner was queer. She gave off major queer-coded Disney villain energy, and while she agreed she was probably demisexual, that’s where the queerness ended in her mind. She gravitated toward queer and trans people and never embodied the typical cis dude attitude or aversion to color or feminine clothing. Selfishly, I had assumed this was my f gender attitude running off on her. The more we talked about gender stuff, the more I side-eyed things she said because they were very egg-like (an egg is a trans person who doesn’t yet realize they’re trans).

“I wish I had been born a girl.”

“I don’t think I actually liked [girl from middle school]. I think I just wanted to be here.”

“I make all my characters girls, but that doesn’t mean anything.”

If you know anything about eggs, you need to let them come out of the shell on their own or with very gentle help. I waited, I listened, I suggested things she might like, and when she came out as a trans woman, it felt more like a natural progression rather than some mind-blowing revelation.

My partner has started her transition against the background of the second Trump administration. Conservatives (and some dems) have thrown transgender people under the bus, and England has done its damnedest to make trans peoples’ lives miserable. Meanwhile, I’ve watched my partner become a happier person with every passing day, and I’m more convinced than ever that hormone replacement therapy is a miracle drug. Within a week of starting estrogen and a testosterone blocker, her skin started getting softer. Other changes came rapidly, and with each one, there was a new spark of joy.

She got bras, she got a purse, she got a new coat and boots, we used a laser to remove her facial hair (a work in progress), and slowly, she started presenting even more femme before she came out to my mom and family. She was understandably nervous to tell other people, but when she did, my mom immediately started using her new name and pronouns. My partner came out to the rest of my family right before Thanksgiving, and it went well. Ever since she came out, a weight has been lifted from her. The new hormones had already bolstered her mood and chipped away at the self-loathing, but coming out freed her.

Every day I watch someone I have known for the majority of my life change and grow in ways I never thought possible. She has somehow become more herself while becoming someone new, and I am honored that I’m able to be a part of it.

I often think of the spouses or parents who treated their trans loved ones as if they died or betrayed them, and I can’t imagine that. The sheer joy rolling off my partner as she tries new things and feels more herself makes it more than clear that this is the best decision she could have made. Doing something new is scary, and more than anything, I’m proud of her for making the leap and choosing to love herself and embrace the person she was always meant to be.

I used to joke that I’m a wife guy, and now, I truly am.

the reanimator's fate · Writing

10 Reasons to Read The Reanimator’s Fate

Now that we are less than two months away from the release of The Reanimator’s Fate (TRM #4), I wanted to give you a few reasons why you should read it (or look forward to it):

  1. Community– this book has a lot of focus on community, the importance of it, the different ways we are in community with each other in small spaces and the world at large.
  2. Cursed objects– while there aren’t any haunted dolls or cursed gems stolen during colonization, there is some new magic in the way of curses, an antiquated method of magic that packs a punch.
  3. Books, libraries, words– last book was very textile heavy, and this book is definitely more focused on the impact of books and words and the way we contain and share knowledge.
  4. The origins of the Paranormal Society– we finally get some more background about how the Paranormal Society came to be and how it functions as a supernatural entity. It’s a little weird.
  5. A look to the future– this story is very much about how we impact the world around us on a micro and macro level, so with fate being involved, there’s a lot of talk about Oliver, Felipe, and Gwen’s futures.
  6. Growing some spines– as the cover may suggest, Oliver and Felipe both grow a spine and stand up to some people, real or imagined, in order to become someone new.
  7. Felipe confronts some inner demons– this was definitely hinted at in book 3, but Felipe is facing down more of his inner demons and finally taking them on.
  8. Prophecies– the prophecy from “An Unexpected Evening” rears its head. If you haven’t read that short story yet, I highly recommend doing so, especially since it’s free!
  9. Oliver gets to tell people off– I don’t know about everyone else, but I really enjoy when Oliver finally snaps and goes off on people who deserve it. In this book, we have more than Oliver pops-off incident. Conversely, he also does a lot of heavy lifting for Felipe emotionally in this book, which feels like a good balance.
  10. This is the final novel in the Reanimator Mysteries series– while there will be a short story collection with all of the in-between stories and several brand new ones, The Reanimator’s Fate is the last big story I have planned for Oliver and Felipe, so I hope you will come and see them off.

If any of this sounds interesting to you, I hope you’ll preorder The Reanimator’s Fate, coming out on January 29th. You can get it all major retailers, and the paperback will be out in January.

Or start the series with The Reanimator’s Heart in ebook, audiobook, or paperback (and in library systems).

Monthly Review

November 2025 Wrap-Up Post

November has been one of those weirdly pleasant months where I start to question whether I haven’t been paying attention or if it was actually good. In the US, it feels like the tide is starting to turn, which has bolstered my spirits, and the holidays are approaching rapidly (for better or worse). Here were my goals for November:

  • Write 25,000 words
  • Reread and edit act 2
  • Read 8 books
  • Blog weekly
  • Send out my newsletter
  • Cover reveal (hopefully)
  • Keep up with grading
  • Finish Christmas shopping

Books

My goal was to read 8 books, and I read exactly 8.

  1. Nine Goblins by T. Kingfisher- 4 stars, a quirky tale of goblins in the midst of an endless war against humans and elves who get transported into the middle of enemy territory only to run into a veterinarian elf and a mass murdering human.
  2. Network Effect (#5) by Martha Wells- 4 stars, since this is the middle of the Murder Bot Diaries series, I won’t give too much away, but I absolutely love Murderbot. They are the autistic robot I love the most, and in this volume, he is forced to fight for the people he loves, grapple with his own feelings, but have no fear because ART is back!
  3. Snake Eater by T. Kingfisher- 5 stars, a tale of desert folklore where a woman runs away from her old life only to quickly become a member of a small town inhabited by oddballs, demi gods, and desert spirits who are willing to kill for what they want.
  4. The Holiday Trap by Roan Parrish- 4 stars, The Holiday but gay. A Jewish woman from a small town swaps houses with a man from New Orleans who found out his boyfriend had a secret family. They find out their lives could be so much richer if they can get out of their bubble and yearn for more. Absolutely loved it.
  5. Nettle & Bone by T. Kingfisher- 5 stars, a princess turned convent-dweller turned woman on a mission gathers a group of unlikely heroes, including a demonic chicken and a bone dog, to save her sister and her kingdom. I really love T. Kingfisher’s books, and this one was my favorite I read this month of hers.
  6. Lovers at the Museum by Isabel Allende- 3 stars, someone recommended this to me, and while it had an air of magical realism x Piranesi, I found it a little heavy handed for my taste.
  7. The Long Game (#4) by Ann Leckie- 4 stars, a very weird short story about an alien slug (?) who is trying to extend his life and better the lives of his people while dealing with the large and complex world of humans.
  8. Just Out of Jupiter’s Reach (#5) by Nnedi Okorafor- 4 stars, a short story about seven people who leave earth for 10 years in order to get millions of dollars and bond with a genetically engineered spaceship. Intriguing and weird but with surprising depth for such a small package.

Admin/Behind-the-Scenes Stuff

  • Wrote a lot
  • Edited all of Act 1 again
  • Edited all of Act 2 part 1 again
  • Stayed on top of grading
  • Ran a sale/book bundle
  • My partner came out to my mom and extended family
  • Finished my Christmas shopping
  • Started working on my 2026 goals
  • Voted in my state’s gubernatorial election (dems won, yay!)
  • Had to pay for my meds out of pocket (boo)

Blog


Writing

This month went oddly smoothly with my writing. I feel like I hit my stride with my energy levels until the very end of the month when I mildly crashed a bit around Thanksgiving. I am trying to listen to my body and back off when necessary. I decided to do some editing instead, and I am pleased to report that the beginning of the book is in surprisingly good shape (yay). I’m really hoping that this trend of smooth writing continues into December, so I can wrap this book up without too much chaos. Wish me luck in that regard, but at least the semester is ending soon.


Hopes for December

  • Finish writing the book
  • Edit Act 2 part 2
  • Read 8 books
  • Send out newsletter
  • Wrap presents
  • Blog weekly
  • Post grades/finish grading
  • Set up Q1 and 2026 goals
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The Reanimator’s Fate Cover Reveal

Today is the day we have all been waiting for, the cover reveal for The Reanimator’s Fate (TRM #4). Crowglass Design has outdone himself with the cover for The Reanimator’s Fate! The cover is *chef kiss* and captured the strain the boys are under in the final installment of the Reanimator Mysteries series.

If you haven’t read book one, you can start the series in ebook, audiobook, or paperback, or you can grab book 2 or book 3 in any of those formats. I also have a sale going exclusively on Itch.io where you can get each ebook for $1.99 until the end of November.


The Reanimator’s Fate is the fourth book in the Reanimator Mysteries series and will be out January 29th, 2026. You can preorder the ebook now at all major retailers, and the paperback will be available in January closer to release day.

Check out the cover, current content warnings, blurb, and preorder link below:


An autistic necromancer, his undead love, and a future in peril

The Paranormal Society has been Oliver’s home for over a decade, yet he still isn’t sure where he fits. At Gwen’s suggestion, Oliver joins the mutual aid committee, but between misunderstandings, sabotage, and a life-changing proposition, Oliver once again fears he is out of his depth. At least there’s one thing he can count on: Felipe and the cases they solve together.

Felipe has always been the one everyone can depend on, but after years of bloodshed, fighting, and death, the cracks are beginning to show. The gruesome cases that once sustained him, now fill him with dread to the point that he questions how long he can keep going before he breaks. But if he isn’t a weapon, then what good is he to anyone?

A sinister plot against magical folks is unfolding, one that threatens to destroy the Paranormal Society from the inside. Can Oliver and Felipe grow into the men they were always meant to be, or will their doubt spell their doom?


CWs include but are not limited to: Murder, descriptions of corpses/autopsies, on page sexual content, ableism against autistics, suicidal ideation, violence, blood, gore, anxiety attack, medical peril


the cover for The Reanimator's Fate by Kara Jorgensen. The background is black with purple and white accents. In the center is a book with a ribcage and spine that lines up with the book spine. Around it are suns, moons, and a dagger. On either side of the book is a man reaching desperately for the man on the other side. A tether of lines joins their chests

As much as I hate to write the last novel for Oliver and Felipe, I absolutely love the cover Crowglass Design has come up with. I think he has knocked it out of the park, and I hope you all love the book as much as I do. You can preorder it at all major retailers or add it on Goodreads. The preorder link is a universal link that will take you to Amazon, B&N, Kobo, and more.

Paperbacks will be available in January closer to release day, and the audiobook will be out in spring or early summer of 2026.

There will be a book of collected short stories for Oliver, Felipe, Gwen, and several other reader favorites coming out in late 2026 as well, so stay tuned for that!

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What to Buy Your ND Friends

As we head into the holiday gift-giving season, I thought I would make a list of some cool things to buy the neurodivergent in your life. I posted about this last year on Bluesky, and a lot of people found it helpful, so I thought I might share it here.

Disclaimers: the links are affiliate links, so I get a little kickback if you buy anything. Also, every neurodivergent person in your life is different. These are base ideas, not something that will appeal to everyone. The idea is that you can take these and use them as a springboard for buying things for others or padding out the gifts you plan to get them.

  • Silicone plate dividers– These silicone plate dividers keep your wet food and dry food from touching. They’re dishwasher safe and come in multiple colors.
  • A divided cereal bowl– A divided cereal bowl keeps your cereal and your milk separate. It’s a great way to avoid soggy food. Also useful for yogurt and toppings or just having chips/dip that don’t touch.
  • A dip holder– I promise this is the last food related one, but keeping your wets from touching your dries is always a thing. This is a little container that clips to your plate and will hold your sauce.
  • A weighted blanket– This one comes in lots of cute colors and patterns. I do suggest getting a cover for your weighted blanket, so you don’t need to throw a 15 lb blanket in your washing machine (it is chaos)
  • A duvet cover for the weighted blanket– This is so you don’t need to throw a 15 lb blanket into the washing machine (it takes FOREVER for them to dry if you do and will make your washer and dryer shake/walk, trust me this is worth it).
  • A shark robe/snuggie thing– If you’re friend is trans and ND, this is a silly one but trust me on it, they’ll think it’s hilarious. Plus, being able to pull a giant hood over your head is just chef kiss
  • The Comfy– My partner swears by the Comfy when they’re overstimulated (and perpetually cold). It’s oversized, and you can basically crawl into it or pull the hood over your head. It’s soft, warm, no weird fabrics or irritating strings.
  • A moon lamp– Sometimes you just need to lay in the dark with some soft colorful lighting. This lamp has a clicker with different colors. It’s very peaceful and aesthetic, especially if they’re into space stuff.
  • A human-sized dog bed– Do you like floor time, but you have the back/neck of a 30+ year old? Try the human sized dog bed.
  • A Japanese futon/tatami mat– Same idea as the human dog bed for floor time, but it’s easier to roll up and put away. It’s also more expensive, though bigger.
  • Color, Taste, Texture by Matthew Broberg Moffitt– A cookbook to help with someone who has food aversions/sensitivities by helping them figure out what they can/can’t tolerate and building from there.
  • Loop earplugs– to lessen sound without making you completely unable to hear. They come in many colors and levels of blockage.
  • A hug blanket– If you aren’t a fan of weighted blankets but like compression that isn’t too hot, this is a good alternative as it’s much lighter and more like a sleeve.
  • A timer cube– I like them for getting past bad executive dysfunction or for telling myself, I just need to clean for 15 min, etc. Caveat: the noise is hideous, like an alarm clock.
  • A grocery list pad for the fridge– If you forget what you’re out of, I like to put this on the fridge with a magnetic pen, so I can mark off what we’re out of when I notice. It’s a good way to avoid a 5 soy sauce bottles situation.
  • Safe and Sound by Mercury Stardust- Not necessarily ND specific, but I like being able to do things on my own with clear, step-by-step written instructions and accompanying videos. The Trans Handy Ma’am’s book has been helpful with basic home repair.
  • Noise-cancelling headphones– because noise = overstimulation. Some are far more expensive, but these are a good basic pair. They can get SUPER pricey
  • Other ideas:
    • Buy things relating to their special interest.
    • Give them a gift card to a place they like if they don’t like surprises.
    • Do not buy an experience with a date unless you’ve talked to them about it before.
    • More of their [nonperishable] safe food.
    • Ask them what they want. We appreciate it.
Writer Rambles · Writing

Writer Rambles #2

You ever get mad at yourself because something that should work actually does work, so you’re mad at yourself that you put off doing it for so long. That was me this month with using sprints and giving myself concrete writing goals. I used to do this religiously, but recently, I fell off the wagon due to life, work, stress, etc. I told myself that I didn’t need to have goals because I can just write and that’s fine.

*Narrator voice* It was indeed not fine.

I started to get very down about myself because I was struggling to write consistently above a small(ish) amount per day with plenty of work days where I did nothing at all. This led to me feeling bad about myself and internally beating myself up. As you can imagine, this is counterproductive and only makes it harder to write. Not writing makes my mental health slip and my mental health slipping makes me not want to write. It can be a vicious cycle at times. Part of what was making it hard to write and stay on track was I was focusing on a minimum while trying to shoot for a maximum that was unattainable because in my head I was always playing catch-up. “My goal is x, but as long as I shoot for y, I’m okay.” This led to me hitting the smaller goal and feeling bad that I didn’t hit the bigger one. Playing catch-up constantly is stressful as hell, and when you can’t catch up because the goal was unrealistic, it makes everything worse.

In November, I vowed to not do that. I took out my blank word count tracker, set up a monthly goal that was reasonable enough for daily writing where if I missed a day, fully or partially, I could catch up in a day or two. So far, it has been working, and I’m mad at myself for not doing it sooner last month. I wish I had taken a second, regrouped, and restarted my word count goal midway through. My absolute refusal to recalibrate was my downfall, and I’m trying to be better about it because my autistic brain does not like to change or deviate from a plan once I have it in place.

If you’re curious as to what I am using right now to track all of this, I would like to warn you that I have redundancies because I’m still figuring out what my brain prefers at this point. I have a monthly sprints tracker from Sarra Cannon’s Heartbreathing resource library that I’m using to specifically track sprints each day as well as my word count. To track my overall writing goal until I finish, I’m using Pacemaker (which lowkey stresses me out a little, so I haven’t been using it as consistently), but for my monthly goal, I’m trying out TrackBear because a friend was recommending it. It’s similar to Nanowrimo’s graphs, which I think a lot of people will like. I find it less stressful to look at than Pacemaker right now. I have no idea why, but if it works, it works.

Sprinting has also helped a lot when I’m feeling resistance about writing because it is a concise amount of time that I need to work, and after that, I can be done. Often by the time I finish, I’m less stressed and can easily keep writing. I bought a timer cube to help with this as well because I had a bad habit of pausing internet-based timers. I really hate the fact that I need to work around my brain so much, but I’m trying to be kind to myself because the outside world in the US is very stressful and feeling out of control makes my anxiety so much worse.

The lesson I would like you to take away from this that took me too long to figure out is that if something isn’t working, stop and take a step back. Figure out what you need to do to regroup, be realistic with what you are capable of, and start over. You can get back on track. You just need to be flexible and allow yourself to do so.

Monthly Review

October 2025 Wrap-Up Post

October has been productive yet anti-climactic. It’s been one of those months where things weren’t bad, but they weren’t particularly good either. I’ve been trying to enjoy the small things more, like the leaves changing and spending time with my partner and pets. And, of course, writing. Let’s look at my goals for October again:

  • Write 20,000 words
  • Keep up with grades
  • Maintain my mental health
  • Make a dent in Christmas shopping
  • Read 8 books
  • Blog weekly
  • Send out my monthly newsletter
  • Cover reveal??

Books

My goal was to read 8 books, and I read 11 in October.

  1. Make the Season Bright by Ashley Herring Blake- 4 stars, a sapphic second chance romance between childhood sweethearts set against a Hallmark style holiday matchmaking event. Of all of Blake’s books, I think this is my favorite so far, mostly due to the complexity of the characters.
  2. Magically Generated by Jackie Lau- 4 stars, a cynical woman and a sunshine man are neighbors in the same building, and she soon learns that not only is he jolly but that he is making ice sculptures all over the city in an unbelievable way.
  3. Queer as Folklore by Sacha Coward- 5 stars, a nonfiction book where the origins of folktales are examined for their queer roots. I loved how this book covered a wide spectrum of creatures and groups, including but not limited to vampires, werewolves, mermaids, pirates, and more much.
  4. A Mouthful of Dust (#6) by Nghi Vo- 5 stars, Cleric Chih reaches a town known for its pork noodles only to find a story about a past famine is far more disturbing than they bargained for. This pairs very well with Eaters of the Dead by Kevin Wetmore.
  5. Cinder House by Freya Marske- 5 stars, a Cinderella retelling where the titular character is a ghost compelled to clean who decides to have one last hurrah as a human and accidentally finds herself in a poly relationship.
  6. What Stalks the Deep (#3) by T. Kingfisher- 5 stars, this book reminded me so much of Jordan L. Hawk’s Widdershins books. Our sworn soldier is summoned to America to help an old friend only to face down monsters in a creepy mine.
  7. Smell by Nagabe- 4 stars, Nagabe’s work is almost always erotic, just as a heads-up. This one is two dogs with a smell kink. Yes, it’s weird. Yes, I still enjoyed it.
  8. The Moon on a Rainy Night (#7) by Kuzushiro- 4 stars, this is a sapphic YA series featuring a hard of hearing character. The girls finally get to put on their chorus performance and work at a maid cafe at school. It’s a very cute episode where we get to see them shine and support each other.
  9. Lore Olympus (#9) by Rachel Smythe- 4 stars, Persephone’s trial is over, and she and Hades are trying to start their life together, only Demeter is once again making things difficult.
  10. The Ancient Magus’s Bride (#21) by Kore Yamazaki, 4 stars, we are beginning a new arc here involving dragons. I really liked this volume as it brought back some older characters. I’m looking forward to seeing where it goes from here.
  11. My Twisted Eating Disorder by Nagata Kabi- 4 stars, Kabi’s work is autobiographical and deals with her many mental health struggles as someone with an addictive personality. I would not recommend this volume if anyone has an eating disorder as it may be triggering, but it was interesting to see inside someone’s mind as they struggle with it.

Admin/Behind-the-Scenes Stuff

  • Mostly worked on The Reanimator’s Fate
  • Caught up on my bookkeeping
  • Worked with my cover designer on the TRF cover
  • Worked on managing my stress better
  • Spent a lot of time with my partner (see bullet point above, lol)
  • My oldest dog had a seizure (he’s okay, but it was scary)
  • Voted in the NJ gubernatorial election
  • Pulled off a successful event at work with my students
  • Graded a shit ton of papers
  • Dealt with repairmen

Blogs


Writing

I don’t want to jinx it, but writing went well in October. I managed to untangle an issue I was having and make a chunk of The Reanimator’s Fate much more focused and less clunky than I had originally planned. I don’t want to give too much away, but I really like the arc in this book, especially the emotional one. Poor Felipe is going through it, as is Oliver. It’s going to be a rough one for the boys, but they will come out of it far stronger by the end. And Gwen also plays an important role in this story as well (since I know so many of you love Gwen like I do).


Hopes for November

  • Write 25,000 words
  • Reread and edit act 2
  • Read 8 books
  • Blog weekly
  • Send out my newsletter
  • Cover reveal (hopefully)
  • Keep up with grading
  • Finish Christmas shopping
Personal Life

Vote, Vote, Vote!

I was not planning on writing about politics today, but as I worked on a post about the Audra Winter mess (forthcoming), I couldn’t stop thinking about the gubernatorial election that is going on in my state as we speak. If you’re in New Jersey, make sure you go out and vote, preferably Democrat/Mikie Sherrill.

Sherrill was not the person I was backing in the democratic primary over the summer. She is, at best, a mid, moderate democrat. I flipflopped back and forth between Steve Fulop and Ras Baraka up until the day I filled out my ballot, and if nothing else, this primary taught me why we need ranked choice voting in New Jersey. I think, if we had it, we would have a more progressive candidate running for governor.

At the same time, it is not the time to not vote or to vote for everyone but Sherrill. Unfortunately, some elections are meh versus an absolute horror. The republican candidate has run (and lost) repeatedly, but with each campaign, he has aligned more closely with the current president’s agenda. He is anti-queer people, anti-trans people, anti-people of color (his ads are like 99% white people), anti-choice, and his ads try to paint Sherrill as an air-headed woman, which means he is misogynistic as well, big surprise.

As someone with a working uterus (unfortunately) and a partner on HRT, I am terrified that he will be elected. Sherrill has been ahead in the polls consistently but not by that much. This is certainly not a runaway, and as someone said, “Women will vote for misogynists, but misogynists will never vote for women.” New Jersey is a decently liberal state with protections for marginalized people, BUT a lot of them are only edicts from the governor, not anything codified in state law, which would make them harder to get rid of. A republican as governor could rip those protections away within days of getting into office, and I am so worried for trans people, women, anyone that ICE could target.

I think a lot of people assume New Jersey is a thoroughly blue state, but it isn’t. We have a lot of republicans, and my own town is grossly red despite how diverse it is. Because people assume New Jersey will lean democrat no matter what, the fear is that younger people won’t go out and vote. I actually gave my students off for Election Day, so they can go vote, even though we have early voting and mail-in ballots in our state. I want there to be zero excuse for them to do their civic duty. The other reason I give them off on election day is because in past years, the anxiety level has been so high that teaching them feels pointless. Between me and them, we are ten seconds from exploding, and giving them the space to vote and decompress is more important than one lesson on writing essays.

The takeaway from this is to vote with the rights of the most marginalized person you know in mind. Who will care for the sick best? Who will protect reproductive rights if someone needs an abortion? Who will protect the undocumented people in your communities the best? Who will pushback against those who want to take your rights away? And even if they aren’t the most liberal person, who won’t stand in the way if the legislature wants to be more liberal than they are? It is worth preserving what we have and striving for better than spitefully letting things go to shit because your ideal candidate isn’t running. It sucks, but when the choices are meh and horrible, meh is the ethical choice, especially if the meh candidate probably won’t stand in the way of other people’s right to have a good life.

If you’re eligible to vote in NJ, please go vote for the democratic candidates in your area, do research on your school board candidates, and encourage others to vote as well. And if you’re in NYC, vote Mamdani (because I wish he was my governor instead of your mayor).